Thanks guys. :)

I just wanted to take a minute to thank all of our wonderful friends — especially Kathryn, Arushi, Britt, Bob, Joel, everyone who has left comments here, listened to us bitch, let me cry on the phone, drove me places. Knowing you care is a huge comfort. I don’t take y’all for granted, even if I’m not always that good at expressing myself. I love you guys.

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My amazing husband.

You know what my dear sweet wonderful husband told me today? Even in the midst of one of his worst days of pain, the day we ended up in the emergency room, his plan for today was to go out and buy me flowers to thank me for being there for him. How amazingly sweet is that? He’s truly one of a kind. I am the luckiest person in the world.

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Things I’m letting go.

Been thinking a lot about what to let go, to cut down on my stress. I need to be as healthy as I can to support Doc while he’s having a rough go of it, and to make it through all the extra work I have committed to. So I’ve decided to put one thing on hiatus, and stopping worrying so much about a second thing. As of 2 days ago, Project 365 is on officially on summer vacation. Hopefully only for a few weeks, but eliminating the stress of “oh fuck, it’s almost time to go to bed and I still haven’t taken a photo” is going to make a difference. It’s not like I’m doing it for anyone except myself, anyway, and I need to learn how not to feel guilty about failing to achieve personal goals, so this is a good start. And the thing I’m going to quit worrying about is cooking vs. eating out. The stupid spaghetti incident from last night made me realize that not wanting to cook, and getting takeout instead, is not the end of the world. I routinely worry about what to pack for my breakfast and lunch for work, and about cooking when I get home at night, WAY more than most people probably think I do. Planning all that is so prevalent in my mind that it’s probably adding more to my stress levels than I ever realized. So if I’m tired, I’m going to go out and just not worry about it. For a while. Until my August and September freelance hell months are over. Until Doc starts feeling better.

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Back from the E.R.

Too exhausted to write much, but the CAT scan came back clear. No tumors. Hydrocodone definitely dulls his pain but he’s totally stoned at the same time, so it’s not much of a solution. Good news is, going to the ER got him some sort of emergency referral to Dr. Black, the headache neurologist who’s “booked up” until 2008. Going to call him tomorrow and see when he can see Doc. Had good experiences at the hospital. Doc felt like this time (his 4th time in the ER for headaches, the other 3 were before I met him) people were taking him seriously and not just saying “you have a headache, take some tylenol” and sending him home. Doctors seemed concerned, wanted CAT scan done. Several different people asked him who his neurologist was and seemed surprised that he didn’t have one, so rather than a “do you want to see a neurologist about your problem?” attitude, it was more like “um, sir, someone in your condition NEEDS to be seeing a neurologist.” That was definitely a positive experience for him. The nurse who gave Doc the pain shot and who checked us out at the end was so nice and so concerned about him, she seemed very sincere and caring. I didn’t get her name. When we initially got to the hospital and had to park a few blocks from the ER in the only parking we could find, a hospital worker pulled alongside us in his truck and offered us a ride up to the ER, which we took. VERY good hospital experiences this time. Of course, we haven’t yet gotten the bill.

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