Terrible dream

I had a terrible dream last night. I woke up this morning crying and shaking. If you are sensitive to stories about animals getting injured, please don’t read this. I know I’m going to have a hard time typing it out.

I was in a hospital, foll0wing around the “Dr. Cox” character played by John C. McGinley on “Scrubs.” I carried five fresh artichokes with me, and a paring knife. I would occasionally stop and cut off the bottom or top of an artichoke to reveal the insides. In my dream, artichoke middles contained little metal rods with beautiful sparkling glitter and glass beads on top.

I followed Dr. Cox into a patient’s room, and he said that the patient had total amnesia and had no idea who he was. We had to help him remember. I thought I recognized him and said “Brandon?” But it wasn’t who I thought it was. My cat Neko was in the room, lounging on the bottom floor of her cat tower.

A nurse opened the door to the patient’s room and the “Sun” and “Jin” characters from “LOST” walked in carrying baseball bats. The only way to help the patient remember who he was, was for them to hit Neko with the baseball bats. I was terribly upset about this but knew that it was the only way, and it was very important so we had to do it. They took turns smashing her with the bats. I could hear her little leg bones breaking; they made sounds like shattering glass. She wasn’t protesting; she just lay there passively letting them do their work.

I knew that if they hit her in the head they would kill her so I tried to turn her around so her rear legs were facing them instead of her head. Finally I couldn’t take it anymore and I threw myself on top of her, shielding her from the blows and crying “Please stop, you’ll kill her, please don’t.” Vaguely in the background I heard the patient suddenly remember his identity. I was too busy crying to care, and I couldn’t remember why murdering my cat would help this guy and why I would let anyone do this to her.

The absolute saddest part of this whole thing, the part that is making me cry even now, is that Neko knowingly sacrificed herself to help a complete stranger. She knew she was going to die and she did it anyway.