i wanna rock and roll all night, and part of every day

I’m severely manic today. I don’t know what the deal is. I’ve got tons and tons and tons of energy, and I feel like I’m flying high, like everything’s falling into place, like I’m getting tons of stuff done, like I can keep going all night. It’s almost like I’ve taken some mood altering substance that’s got me going going going going going. (I didn’t.) You know that feeling where you can almost feel every blood cell in your body zipping along through your veins, like your energy is almost visceral, it’s this THING that you can feel circulating through you and it makes your whole body hum and vibrate? That’s what this feels like, except I’m keeping it perfectly under control, it’s right at that knife edge where it could go too far and suddenly I’d feel like complete shit. I’m keeping it on the knife blade today, all day.

I’m even typing crazy fast. (And making crazy lots of mistakes, but that’s another story). Even now, at 9:45 p.m., I still feel like I’m cresting on some crazy energy wave, although I can feel it abating a little bit.

Here is what I’ve done today, in no particular order:

• Got up at 7.
• Made a list of money that we owe people, and money that is owed to us for various minor recent things.
• Assisted on a video shoot for a documentary about kids attending cancer camp.
• Ate breakfast.
• Ran errands at Target.
• Washed all the towels in the house in a strong vinegar soak to get rid of the impending musty smell that I’ve sensed lately.
• Belled the cat. (That was Doc’s task, actually. Loki’s furious about having to wear a collar … a shiny neon yellow reflective collar with a loud jangly bell. No more stealthy misbehaviour for him. We’re convinced that he knows he’s invisible sometimes.)
• Finished some work on Debbie’s website.
• Helped Doc complete 5 invoices to send off to clients.
• Went through Doc’s database and closed out jobs that needed closing.
• Entered Doc’s recent expenses into his database.
• Talked to Arushi for 45 minutes.
• Ate dinner and drank a Tilburg’s Dutch Brown Ale.
• Prepared and sent off 3 recipes to Erica, who’s revamping our QFC website and reviving our newsletter from the dead.
• Collected Molly’s DVDs to mail back to her.
• Collected a DVD to mail to Joel.
• Made a list of things to do tomorrow after running.
• Locked myself (somehow? or was it a cat?) out of my filing cabinet which I purchased at a surplus sale at work and to which I have no key.
• Took photos of the file cabinet and locking mechanism to take to a locksmith tomorrow.
• Measured some stuff in the bedroom to try to determine the best place to put the treadmill.
• Thought about posting some stuff to eBay or craigslist, but didn’t do it.
• Exported Cover Story to post to my blog and/or Youtube.
• Ate some cheese and crackers.
• Made my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow.
• Did the dishes and cleaned all the counters.
• Cleaned out underneath my bathroom sink, my bathroom drawer, the cabinet above our toilet, and the cabinet in the cat bathroom. Tossed a bunch of old stuff, rearranged some items, consolidated some items, and began putting together an “emergency kit” for work with toothpaste, tampons, eyedrops, floss, sewing kit, deodorant, ibuprofen, etc.
• Talked to Mom on IM and tried to help her solve a computer problem.
• Checked out the art of Jose Emroca Flores.
• Complained about the 107 degree heat this afternoon.
• Sat here writing this post, fidgeting like I need to get up and do something.

Things that I did Saturday:

• Got up at 9.
• Went to the gym with Doc; ran 3.5 miles while he used the treadmill.
• Came home, showered, dressed, and ate lunch.
• Drove to Grapevine to a fitness store, where we bought a treadmill (I probably ran another half mile, this time in my bare feet, testing out the treadmills).
• Went to the crazy nutty Grapevine outlet mall and walked around for a while. Suprisingly – or perhaps not so surprisingly – found absolutely nothing I wanted to buy. Played a quiet game in my head called “Is America Fatter Than Me?” (answer: Yes.).
• Made bierocks when we got home (I made the dough; Doc made the filling and assembled them) and cut up fresh veggies for a mini-salad-bar.
• Watched a mostly useless 2 hour Discovery Channel show about the search for Atlantis, that could have been covered in 15 minutes.
• I think I did some other stuff but that was 24 hours ago and the mind is not so sharp these days.

Things I neglected to do this weekend:

• See Bob while he was in town. I thought we’d get together Saturday night after his trip to Six Flags, but he had to drive back to Lubbock in kind of an emergency that night because the friend that he was with found out his dog died that day back home 🙁
• Call Yvonne back in time to get in on the farmers’ market co-op thing for this weekend.
• Run or walk or bicycle today.
• Move all our eBay/craigslist stuff to the garage.

Like you care about any of that! I know, it’s mostly just a list for me to feel proud of myself and wonder how I had the freakin’ energy to accomplish it.

Friday night Doc and I went to Stout, a very quiet nearly deserted bar on Greenville (how do they stay in business?) and had a few drinks and played pool. Later we went to Yvonne and Nate’s house for a few hours and had some pizza and more drinks with Brittney and Chris.

I think that I’m done with alcohol for a while, at least until after the marathon. Not that I drink too much or anything; in fact, I only have 1-2 drinks a week at the most. But it’s extra calories that I don’t need. Of course, I’m finishing off my Tilburg’s Dutch Brown from dinner as I type…. and of course this isn’t a hard and fast rule. I’m sure I’ll have a celebratory drink on my 34th birthday.

We’ve started to ramp up our long-run distances. This weekend was 3.5; next weekend is 4. We’ll do about 1/2 mile more every weekend until a few weeks before the race. I’m concerned that I’m not doing enough strength training and other types of training like stretching or swimming or yoga. I want to run every day because I feel it gives me the most benefit, but I don’t want to run AND do another form of exercise – that’s way too much time. So I really just need to develop a schedule. I was going to yoga Wednesdays and Fridays, but my work schedule’s been kind of messed up the past 2 weeks and I haven’t gone. I think I need to do 3-5 runs a week, 1-2 days of other training, and have one day of rest.